yea.. she's the one.

how u know someone is the one u looking for??
tis is my experience n for me, it is my way to figure it out.
u feel comfortable when she's around, although without talking.
u try to think of topics to talk to, bt u juz couldn't speak it out.
can u imagine tat u r concentrade only on her when she's around.
u can hardly pay attention on others.

yea, i try to capture every movement she did.
every emotion she put on her face.
i'll close my eyes n imagine her motion, emotion, movement.
her smile, her helpless emotion, the way she talks, laughs, kept silence, trying to open her eyes while the wind is blowing hard.
the way she walks, hikes, swims, snorkels.
the way when she walks with wound on her feet,
well, i really feel sorry n sorrow when i saw her in tat condition.
i juz leave her to work on it alone. wat the fuck am i doing.

i miss the way she act tough.
'i can, i really can'
i dont knw. is tat the way she kept distance from me?
or she is juz act the way she are.

when u really pay attention on someone.
u cn really catch smal small movement n emotion she put.
at tis moment, she talks n laughs,
the nex second, u can see she's in sorrow especially when ppl talking bout her condition.
bt tis only last for seconds, the she come b alive. with smile on her face.

she might feel helpless, me either.
the 1st time i let her go alone, then she's in trouble.
y am i let her go alone?
y i didn't accompany her? SHIT.. F***
i juz not showing enuf sensitivity.

when u feel u juz not enuf protective to certain person,
when u only concentrade on that particular person,
when u try to protect the ppl.
when u feel empty when the one is not around.
i think, yeah, he/she is the one.

i think i fall in love..

its been such a long time since my last post in tis blog..

when i open this blog.. OPSS, i saw a friend request frm a person who i care sooo much..
honestly telling is tat i met her only once, or can considered never at all..
i think she cant even rmb my face or my voice.. haha.. Hah.

but, her face and voice is deeply planted inside..
wat cn i say is, every moment i spend wif her in phone is vry precious memories.

Its been over a year since our 1st met.
Well, she is a very special one.
she is a girl with her own thought and she is likely to hold on her own thought.
bt, at the same time, she wil ask ur opinion to hear wat u say.
oftenly she'll go on her plan regardless wat u say,
wat she wan is juz a support frm u, she might lack of a bit self-confidence.
and she wan to hear wat u'll do when u r on her position.

actually i didn't knw much bout her, bt i'll and i've try to knw her mor,
bt it seems lk i jus stepping outside the door.
over tis one year, i've attempt to date her..
Bt i gt rejected on the day..
the truth is i'm totally down on tat day. Yea, TOTALLY.

i juz dont knw since when tis kind of feeling is soooo overwhelming.
i ms her every nw and then,
i think i fall in lov wif someone..

this is wat i hold on to.
To luv sum1 doesn't mean to commit with that person..
u just have 2 b satisfied wid whatever connection u have with that special one.
And tats wat i've done all this while and wat i'll do for the following time...

u r a vry Precious one.. u r mor than wat u think.