11 hrs has passed.
plus 2 messages without reply..
and the people you know who is coming back.
i'm running low in confidence.
rumors said, u have to pay for what you want to have.
when i think i've done much,
when i think i've sacrificed,
the truth is, i never.
a year has passed,
did i show enough cares on you?
i thought i've did it. bt didn't met the par.
did i pay enough attention in understanding you??
NOOOOOOOO..
did i always be there when you needed some comfort???
mayb yes, but just a small portion.
what have i done over this past one year??
NOTHiNG.. Playing around..
just a like??
LIKE won't brings you anywhere, only those with the attention to understand will b rewarded.
over these past few days. i've think n think over n over..
and i realized that i really have done nothing for you..
at least for those i think i've done, maybe it is just some tiny things for you.
and now, if i have to grade myself, i'll give me a shit..
with a huge competitive, i'm done.
but still, i want to fight till the last drop of my blood.
the best man wins. this is what i believe in.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
precious time, precious memories. < 3
think of you now.. haha.
did you know, thinking of the precious moments makes me smile.
7/6/2010 you're just way too catchy. ANGEL? i wondered.
taking 1st personal pic with you. i copied 2 my phone n computer right after reaching room. stupid huh.. 9/6/2010
first message received at 10/6/2010
11/6/2010 first call, definitely from me.
first song that we listened 2gether. i know the effect was bad. haha. one less lonely girl.
17/6/2010 wow.. a 'morning' call?? i purposely switched off the alarm. JUSt to hear your voice.
that day i smile all day long. friends asked y u smile urself?sick? haha
19/6/2010 where i got the guts from?? i'm confessing.
26/6/2010 your first singing.. not bad, but so sweet......^^ 没那么简单，就能找到聊得来的伴
hope that i can listened to your singing more.
23/7/2010 first call using digi number.. happy cuz u recognise my voice.. haha.
16/8/2010 first violin audience. birthday song. ^^ (careless me, u r driving leh)
31/5/2011 yeah, i purposely turn off my birthday in fb. bt u did sms 2 wish me.. wow, u stil rmb... (heart pumping fast when i received msg)
18/6/2011 wooo, 1st meet. (seatru prog.) it's been a year till i have chance 2 see you. awesome..
19/6/2011 i hold your hand 4 the 1st time.. i'm going to b crazy.. =)
15/7/2011 our 1st movie. harry potter and the deathly hallow-part 2. u actually covered by my jacket. thats warm( i mean myself, i feel warm)
16/7/2011 walking along gurney drive. juz you n me. hehe.. i feel like couple.*duh.
rmb those poodle? u are a caring person, n u smile when play wif the poodle. tats attractive, wonderful.
17/7/2011 after the midnight tea session. in the car, u laugh. but, i like that so much, a laugh from heart. thats unforgetable.
you are just superb, light me up without saying anything. wow..
did you know, thinking of the precious moments makes me smile.
7/6/2010 you're just way too catchy. ANGEL? i wondered.
taking 1st personal pic with you. i copied 2 my phone n computer right after reaching room. stupid huh.. 9/6/2010
first message received at 10/6/2010
11/6/2010 first call, definitely from me.
first song that we listened 2gether. i know the effect was bad. haha. one less lonely girl.
17/6/2010 wow.. a 'morning' call?? i purposely switched off the alarm. JUSt to hear your voice.
that day i smile all day long. friends asked y u smile urself?sick? haha
19/6/2010 where i got the guts from?? i'm confessing.
26/6/2010 your first singing.. not bad, but so sweet......^^ 没那么简单，就能找到聊得来的伴
hope that i can listened to your singing more.
23/7/2010 first call using digi number.. happy cuz u recognise my voice.. haha.
16/8/2010 first violin audience. birthday song. ^^ (careless me, u r driving leh)
31/5/2011 yeah, i purposely turn off my birthday in fb. bt u did sms 2 wish me.. wow, u stil rmb... (heart pumping fast when i received msg)
18/6/2011 wooo, 1st meet. (seatru prog.) it's been a year till i have chance 2 see you. awesome..
19/6/2011 i hold your hand 4 the 1st time.. i'm going to b crazy.. =)
15/7/2011 our 1st movie. harry potter and the deathly hallow-part 2. u actually covered by my jacket. thats warm( i mean myself, i feel warm)
16/7/2011 walking along gurney drive. juz you n me. hehe.. i feel like couple.*duh.
rmb those poodle? u are a caring person, n u smile when play wif the poodle. tats attractive, wonderful.
17/7/2011 after the midnight tea session. in the car, u laugh. but, i like that so much, a laugh from heart. thats unforgetable.
you are just superb, light me up without saying anything. wow..
Saturday, July 23, 2011
did i stand a chance??
That's what it is. we can't change it.
we just have to decide how we'll respond.
we cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand.
and here is how i play mine.
well, i've been knew you for 1 year, 1 month, n 13 days.
but still, i've know not much about you.
is it i'm using the wrong method?
or i just not showing much sensitivity in this.
i admit i'm numb in this.
but i've try many ways to break through the 'ICE'
calling?? tats not an ideal way. i've done it b4, failed..
i knew that you won't be able to forget him easily.
you really fall in a deep love what.
he is doing great in understanding you.. haha
yeah, i don't expect to replace him easily.
i knew this would be a war, a tough war for me to handle.
what i want you to know is
no matter how hard you fall, no matter how sad you are,
i'm always there backing you up.
a year has passed by and this is how much i knew you.
i dont care spending 3 or 4 mor years to understand you.
you just worth it.
hopefully i can know a better you bits by bits.
provided that i'm given a chance to do so, right?
did i really stand a chance to do so??
i don't know.
like i said in the very beginning, you can't choose your card, it just how you dealt with it.
thinking positively, acting positively.
that's what i hold on to.
yeah.. i'm prepared for the worst situation.
come on and let me dealt with it.
we just have to decide how we'll respond.
we cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand.
and here is how i play mine.
well, i've been knew you for 1 year, 1 month, n 13 days.
but still, i've know not much about you.
is it i'm using the wrong method?
or i just not showing much sensitivity in this.
i admit i'm numb in this.
but i've try many ways to break through the 'ICE'
calling?? tats not an ideal way. i've done it b4, failed..
i knew that you won't be able to forget him easily.
you really fall in a deep love what.
he is doing great in understanding you.. haha
yeah, i don't expect to replace him easily.
i knew this would be a war, a tough war for me to handle.
what i want you to know is
no matter how hard you fall, no matter how sad you are,
i'm always there backing you up.
a year has passed by and this is how much i knew you.
i dont care spending 3 or 4 mor years to understand you.
you just worth it.
hopefully i can know a better you bits by bits.
provided that i'm given a chance to do so, right?
did i really stand a chance to do so??
i don't know.
like i said in the very beginning, you can't choose your card, it just how you dealt with it.
thinking positively, acting positively.
that's what i hold on to.
yeah.. i'm prepared for the worst situation.
come on and let me dealt with it.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
傻瓜
要不是突然看到你眼睛会说话
也许不会对你装傻
所以我决定收下 你的花
相信你 说的每句话
是你让我的心跳每秒钟快几下
突然想吻你的面颊
所以我闭上双眼 幻想着
期待那些浪漫佳话 花前月下
你也在想我吗
你和我一样吗
如果爱真的来临
我们会牵手迎接吗 oh wo ~ oh
我是傻瓜 雨声哗哗 晚风沙沙
想到未来还是有点害怕
我会陪在你身边 每个今天
可是明天你会不会爱上新的她
我是傻瓜 雨声哗哗 晚风沙沙
未知的路 我们是否 要一起出发
海角天涯 一直到青春变成白发
我只希望你
只希望你
叫我傻瓜
你也在想我吗
你和我一样吗
如果爱真的来临
我们会牵手迎接吗 oh wo ~ oh
我是傻瓜 雨声哗哗 晚风沙沙
想到未来还是有点害怕
我会陪在你身边 每个今天
可是明天你会不会爱上新的她
我是傻瓜 雨声哗哗 晚风沙沙
未知的路 我们是否 要一起出发
海角天涯 一直到青春变成白发
我只希望你
只希望你
叫我傻瓜
我是傻瓜 雨声哗哗 晚风沙沙
想到未来还是有点害怕
我会送你一个家 也许不大
但是足够把我们的 梦想都装下
大傻瓜 雨声哗哗 晚风沙沙
未知的路 我们是否 要一起出发
海角天涯 一直到青春变成白发
我只希望你
只希望你
叫我傻瓜
原来一世聪明 为你变傻
也许不会对你装傻
所以我决定收下 你的花
相信你 说的每句话
是你让我的心跳每秒钟快几下
突然想吻你的面颊
所以我闭上双眼 幻想着
期待那些浪漫佳话 花前月下
你也在想我吗
你和我一样吗
如果爱真的来临
我们会牵手迎接吗 oh wo ~ oh
我是傻瓜 雨声哗哗 晚风沙沙
想到未来还是有点害怕
我会陪在你身边 每个今天
可是明天你会不会爱上新的她
我是傻瓜 雨声哗哗 晚风沙沙
未知的路 我们是否 要一起出发
海角天涯 一直到青春变成白发
我只希望你
只希望你
叫我傻瓜
你也在想我吗
你和我一样吗
如果爱真的来临
我们会牵手迎接吗 oh wo ~ oh
我是傻瓜 雨声哗哗 晚风沙沙
想到未来还是有点害怕
我会陪在你身边 每个今天
可是明天你会不会爱上新的她
我是傻瓜 雨声哗哗 晚风沙沙
未知的路 我们是否 要一起出发
海角天涯 一直到青春变成白发
我只希望你
只希望你
叫我傻瓜
我是傻瓜 雨声哗哗 晚风沙沙
想到未来还是有点害怕
我会送你一个家 也许不大
但是足够把我们的 梦想都装下
大傻瓜 雨声哗哗 晚风沙沙
未知的路 我们是否 要一起出发
海角天涯 一直到青春变成白发
我只希望你
只希望你
叫我傻瓜
原来一世聪明 为你变傻
Sunday, July 17, 2011
i'll keep these in my heart..
these few days..
i've visiting taiping area.. wif frenz.
n the mos important is, u r here.
way 2 selama in the bus, wind blow so hard..
ur hair being blown. when i looked at u, my heartbeat jz beating faster than norm.
u r wonderful.
we reach selama.. n then going 2 serdang for fry porridge.
tats my 1st time to take meal 4 u without u rejecting it,
the same nite, same meal, u take ur fish 2 me..
even though it's x ur intention 2 giv it 2 me purposely, u juz giv it cuz u r x eating it.
it stil sooooooo sweet 2 me. it even let me think tat we r couple.. *SILLY
wow, u cal me lim kim seng.. i do hope tat someday u cn cal my mandarin name..
hope tat day wil come soon. soon enuf..
the nex day, we'v been visiting sepetang.
ntg much here. bt tat day, u do eat spicy, 'cool' food..
i was wonder did u having stomach ache.
in the zoo(night safari), we walk so close..
close 2 the xtend my hand cn touch ur hand.my heart beating fast..
tat nite watching harry potter.
i saw u r cold, i've plan 2 hand u my jacket n i knw u surely reject it.
tis is wat i plan 2 say,'披上去啦，不要病了拖累我们的行程。'
bt i juz couldn't say it out..
BT luckily u take it the 2nd time i hand it 2 u..
though i'm cold oso at the middle of the mv, my heart feels warm..
well, tis is the 1st time i feel lk tat.. i wanted 2 hug u tat time, u knw.. (hmm)
maxwell hill n taiping lake.
going dwn the hill. u offer 2 sit less so tat i cn sit mor.
i'm happy,bt i refuse, u'll dizzy if improper sitting.. did u knw tat??
especially downhill raod wif those sharp corners..
penang visit..
tats the sweetest memories i hav in tis whole trip..
Y??
i hav the chance 2 walk alone side by side wif u along the gurney drive.
we do like couple, rite.. tats wat i'l say..
i smile cuz u smile.
rmb tat toy-poodle? ur act to ply wif it really attract me.
ur 'ouch' juz in the right frequency to ring my heart.
i feel like wan 2 hold ur hand tat time.. luckily i didn't.. =p
n ther is one things i wonder.. y u smile alone urself after i said'piao ar piao...'
do u smile bcuz of me? if the ans is yes..
wow.. my heart feels warm nw, thinking of ur smile, the unstoppable smile.. ^^
N u cry, cuz knocked ur head.
i try 2 massage it.
it feels lk my own head is being knocked n my heart is being punched oso..
i didn't wipe ur tears though i wan 2 do tat.
i juz donno wat 2 do..
I'm.. I'm 'lost'..
shud i consider lucky??
having chances 2 xperience all these in one trip, one meet up.
all these memories wil b kept in my brain.
N my heart as well..
ps: i think i'll try 2 plan 4 trip to b wif u.. haha..
tats the only thing tat i cn think of to b wif u right nw.. XD
i've visiting taiping area.. wif frenz.
n the mos important is, u r here.
way 2 selama in the bus, wind blow so hard..
ur hair being blown. when i looked at u, my heartbeat jz beating faster than norm.
u r wonderful.
we reach selama.. n then going 2 serdang for fry porridge.
tats my 1st time to take meal 4 u without u rejecting it,
the same nite, same meal, u take ur fish 2 me..
even though it's x ur intention 2 giv it 2 me purposely, u juz giv it cuz u r x eating it.
it stil sooooooo sweet 2 me. it even let me think tat we r couple.. *SILLY
wow, u cal me lim kim seng.. i do hope tat someday u cn cal my mandarin name..
hope tat day wil come soon. soon enuf..
the nex day, we'v been visiting sepetang.
ntg much here. bt tat day, u do eat spicy, 'cool' food..
i was wonder did u having stomach ache.
in the zoo(night safari), we walk so close..
close 2 the xtend my hand cn touch ur hand.my heart beating fast..
tat nite watching harry potter.
i saw u r cold, i've plan 2 hand u my jacket n i knw u surely reject it.
tis is wat i plan 2 say,'披上去啦，不要病了拖累我们的行程。'
bt i juz couldn't say it out..
BT luckily u take it the 2nd time i hand it 2 u..
though i'm cold oso at the middle of the mv, my heart feels warm..
well, tis is the 1st time i feel lk tat.. i wanted 2 hug u tat time, u knw.. (hmm)
maxwell hill n taiping lake.
going dwn the hill. u offer 2 sit less so tat i cn sit mor.
i'm happy,bt i refuse, u'll dizzy if improper sitting.. did u knw tat??
especially downhill raod wif those sharp corners..
penang visit..
tats the sweetest memories i hav in tis whole trip..
Y??
i hav the chance 2 walk alone side by side wif u along the gurney drive.
we do like couple, rite.. tats wat i'l say..
i smile cuz u smile.
rmb tat toy-poodle? ur act to ply wif it really attract me.
ur 'ouch' juz in the right frequency to ring my heart.
i feel like wan 2 hold ur hand tat time.. luckily i didn't.. =p
n ther is one things i wonder.. y u smile alone urself after i said'piao ar piao...'
do u smile bcuz of me? if the ans is yes..
wow.. my heart feels warm nw, thinking of ur smile, the unstoppable smile.. ^^
N u cry, cuz knocked ur head.
i try 2 massage it.
it feels lk my own head is being knocked n my heart is being punched oso..
i didn't wipe ur tears though i wan 2 do tat.
i juz donno wat 2 do..
I'm.. I'm 'lost'..
shud i consider lucky??
having chances 2 xperience all these in one trip, one meet up.
all these memories wil b kept in my brain.
N my heart as well..
ps: i think i'll try 2 plan 4 trip to b wif u.. haha..
tats the only thing tat i cn think of to b wif u right nw.. XD
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
It's hard(jealousy).. n it's hurt, when i think of u too much.
these few days. u juz pop in my mind over n over again.
i cant do anything bout it..
i do like u, so much... so much..
bt, i juz lack of things 2 talk to.
i , ermm, after a year, wat i gt is, i dont knw much bout u,
i wan 2 gt closer, as b4, bt it juz seem so hard.
we'r merely circling around the same circle..
i'm craving to knw u mor, to gt close, to protect, to love, to b mor important..
bt it juz seem so far,FAR away.. =(
i donno y, n i donno hw.
cn i gt a small signal?? or som sort of things like tat?
i planned, i've been trying 2 impress u.
bt it seems i gt other way round.
yea, i'm jealous when other guys talked 2 u lk 2 of u hav been knw each other so long..
nw i understand 'his' feeling.. haha
u sure wont knw tis, rite?
ur-ex feeling.. well, he's mad wif his fren bcuz being close 2 u, talk much wif u, bla bla bla...
i knw tis frm my fren, he says 'he' is mad of them.. nw i knw 'his' feeling..
tats not stingy, tats worry..
worry of??
worry of u might like o fall in love wif others.
yeA..
tis is the 1st time i post something like tis.. an obvious one. hehe
i cant do anything bout it..
i do like u, so much... so much..
bt, i juz lack of things 2 talk to.
i , ermm, after a year, wat i gt is, i dont knw much bout u,
i wan 2 gt closer, as b4, bt it juz seem so hard.
we'r merely circling around the same circle..
i'm craving to knw u mor, to gt close, to protect, to love, to b mor important..
bt it juz seem so far,FAR away.. =(
i donno y, n i donno hw.
cn i gt a small signal?? or som sort of things like tat?
i planned, i've been trying 2 impress u.
bt it seems i gt other way round.
yea, i'm jealous when other guys talked 2 u lk 2 of u hav been knw each other so long..
nw i understand 'his' feeling.. haha
u sure wont knw tis, rite?
ur-ex feeling.. well, he's mad wif his fren bcuz being close 2 u, talk much wif u, bla bla bla...
i knw tis frm my fren, he says 'he' is mad of them.. nw i knw 'his' feeling..
tats not stingy, tats worry..
worry of??
worry of u might like o fall in love wif others.
yeA..
tis is the 1st time i post something like tis.. an obvious one. hehe
Sunday, July 3, 2011
i'm sorry.. =(
2day i've been done something x matured, making sumone worry.
i'm mad wif myself. i'm sorry... really SORRY. =(
i'm still immature, i nid 2 be mor mature.
tats wat i promise to do..
its all in a unpredicted way 2day..
unplanned 2 go to TM,
it was all of a sudden.
n yet, i stil x hav the chance to pay a visit there..
wat i rmb is, i've planned 3 times to go there. plus tis unplanned. its total 4 times i wanted to go there.
x matter planned or unplanned, i x hav a single chance to pay a visit.
1st plan: plan to go ther when start sem 3. i even ask liu xing yu how to go there. silly.. it all cancel cuz of she decline it..
2nd plan: tats the time i go kl.. july 2010.. cancel cuz of the time x suitable 4 me 2 hav a meet up. she's coming kl by 3pm, if i go, then i'll ms to meet her.. at the end, i don stand a chance to meet up.
3rd plan: august.. 15th of august. sumone special's b'day eve. plan to celeb at TM.. bt, test 2 of fluid 2 is on the same day.. again, a failure indeed..
since then, she's coupled.. i don hav single thing 2 persuade me anymor.
2day, 3rd of july. unplanned visiting TM.
well, story starts here.
i've reach kepong by 5pm. then i cal a friend. she said she juz leaving taiping n i hav to wait 4 hrs.
so she ask me to go TM..
deep inside me, thats a chance 2 pay a visit.
so, i decide 2 go 4 it. bt i didn'tthink on the bad effect tat might occur. wat a immature thought.
the single reason for me to act tat way is u.. bt in the end, i letting u wori on me..
n lastly, i didn't hav a chance oso, to pay a visit there..
wat a failure.. sry..
I'm so SORRY.. sorry 4 makng u worry..
u knw wat i think of nw??
happy yet worry, n sad..
happy cuz i 1st realised tat u wori on me..
wat did i worry n sad for?
will my immaturity cause me to downgrade??marks deducted??
bt.. I'M SORRY.. really SORRY.. =(
i'm mad wif myself. i'm sorry... really SORRY. =(
i'm still immature, i nid 2 be mor mature.
tats wat i promise to do..
its all in a unpredicted way 2day..
unplanned 2 go to TM,
it was all of a sudden.
n yet, i stil x hav the chance to pay a visit there..
wat i rmb is, i've planned 3 times to go there. plus tis unplanned. its total 4 times i wanted to go there.
x matter planned or unplanned, i x hav a single chance to pay a visit.
1st plan: plan to go ther when start sem 3. i even ask liu xing yu how to go there. silly.. it all cancel cuz of she decline it..
2nd plan: tats the time i go kl.. july 2010.. cancel cuz of the time x suitable 4 me 2 hav a meet up. she's coming kl by 3pm, if i go, then i'll ms to meet her.. at the end, i don stand a chance to meet up.
3rd plan: august.. 15th of august. sumone special's b'day eve. plan to celeb at TM.. bt, test 2 of fluid 2 is on the same day.. again, a failure indeed..
since then, she's coupled.. i don hav single thing 2 persuade me anymor.
2day, 3rd of july. unplanned visiting TM.
well, story starts here.
i've reach kepong by 5pm. then i cal a friend. she said she juz leaving taiping n i hav to wait 4 hrs.
so she ask me to go TM..
deep inside me, thats a chance 2 pay a visit.
so, i decide 2 go 4 it. bt i didn'tthink on the bad effect tat might occur. wat a immature thought.
the single reason for me to act tat way is u.. bt in the end, i letting u wori on me..
n lastly, i didn't hav a chance oso, to pay a visit there..
wat a failure.. sry..
I'm so SORRY.. sorry 4 makng u worry..
u knw wat i think of nw??
happy yet worry, n sad..
happy cuz i 1st realised tat u wori on me..
wat did i worry n sad for?
will my immaturity cause me to downgrade??marks deducted??
bt.. I'M SORRY.. really SORRY.. =(
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